Sunday, March 30, 2014

I'm not normal, so what? :D


I thought I’d keep up the writing while I still feel like I have something to say and as you can see in this blog that’s not too often. I got into the thought of how things doesn’t seem to have changed much since high school in the last post of the blog. As I stated there I don’t really care too much about it though, I find it entertaining for the most part.

I'll start by saying that during that time I didn’t have a defined style when it came to clothing. I really just dressed as I felt it when I got up in the morning. I should probably add that I was no fan of bright colours back then and that has changed a little bit over time. Still happy in black though.

My taste in music was also all over the place. Of course I had some genres that appealed more to me, but mostly I figured every situation had a suiting tune and I still find it that way today.

Even though I did have (still do) female friends I can say hands down they don’t make majority by far. The few I do have are great though.  I don’t know why but guys appeal more to me socially and I guess it is because for the most part they don’t overcomplicate things. I’m well aware that it’s not always the case but I stand by the statistics in personal experience and it works for me.

I normally don’t write (or talk for that matter, unless I’m provoked) about sexism, chauvinism or similar subjects. I tend to find it annoying and I guess that’s mostly because I’m always on the wrong side of the argument. I guess a girl that went for technological studies, enjoys gaming and doesn’t get offended too easily (just to pick some examples) doesn’t qualify for the right audience when other girls try to defend their never ending list of rights. I’m all for equality, but I don’t believe we were born the same so an equal opportunity, which I’m all for, is not the same as a free pass. This last sentence sums pretty much up my opinion about this and growing up in a place where sexism is, even today in some degree, pretty normal that wasn’t very popular. To either side of the argument that is.

I guess bottom line to this is that I wasn't the easiest person to put a label on and not everybody is fine with that. Still puzzles me why...

So… why do I say that things haven’t changed? I would’ve thought these things stayed behind once I started working (which I did in a construction company’s office), and it was all BUT better. As of today the degree is notably lower, but it is still there. And again, mostly very amusing.

To tell the truth I didn’t care much for it when I was younger either and that wasn’t always a good (smart?) thing. I guess I tended to rub people the wrong way just because I didn’t care. I used to get the comment “you’re not normal” pretty often and, as I still do today, I said I was proud. Normal sounds really boring to me. I’m no fan of the “go with the flow” and “do as everybody else” attitude and yes, by all means, do as you wish... but I consider “not normal” a compliment. :)


And there’s that! ^_^


Thursday, March 27, 2014

One day at a time...



Being the realistic person that I am (isn’t realistic what pessimists in denial call themselves?) I find myself in a surprisingly good place right now. I’ve always been very lucky with how things turn out for me, but this just feels like a puzzle putting its own pieces together for me…

I’ve ended up living where I always hoped I would as a kid and taking into account that I moved abroad very young that wasn’t a done deal. I love Spain for a lot of reasons, but I don’t think it would’ve ever been “home”. This on the other hand, this IS home.

I have a job that I can truly say I enjoy and getting up in the morning isn’t hard at all. There was a time that I got physically ill just thinking about going to work, but that’s not the case now. Looking forward to tomorrow makes today all that better. One day is never like the day before and even on a bad day (we all have them) there’s something good.

I’ve got the best family, friends and colleagues one could have (I’m sure I’m not the only one, but it doesn’t make it any less true) and although I sometimes feel like high school never really ended I guess I find it kind of amusing now. Yeah, people never reach adulthood… not really. No matter how much experience can teach you most of us just become a more “wise” version of our teenager self. And that’s ok.


Bottom line right now is that I’m as close to happy as I think I’ll ever get and it feels good. Tomorrow might prove me wrong, but for the time being I’m enjoying it so I figured I’d put my thoughts out there to thank everyone making this my present. You know who you are so… Thank you! ^_^